For once in my forsaken life, I managed to watch the clocks go back at 2am this morning.
I can’t say it was as iconic as seeing in the new year, but there was a certain air about the place.
Mainly due to the cats poorly timed sulphuric wind-passing.
I quite fancied recording my thoughts on the day of the clock change as I feel it is something that happens twice a year, and something no one ever gives a real frig over.
Granted it could be the 4 day-old left over Spaghetti Bolognese I ate yesterday, or the old hormones, but something does feel different today.
Is it the time shift?
Is it the fact it’s a damn sight colder?
I don’t know, but it definitely feels more like Autumn/Winter.
And that’s fine by me.
However, what isn’t fine by me, is how quickly said time seems to be passing these days.
Everyone’s saying it.
And the more I think about it, the more I realise how little I’m achieving.
How little I’m getting done in my life. How little I’m enjoying ‘time’.
Days, months, years are just merging into one and nothing feels special anymore.
I live in a constant fear of what’s around the corner so much, that I lose sight of how precious the present is.
And for someone who has studied Buddhism, that’s quite embarrassing.
It’s 2017 (fast approaching 2018) and I don’t know if, as a race, humans have really grasped the concept of time.
And how it cannot be reset, travelled back to, fast forwarded…
Paused while you get your shit together…
Our earthly clocks are ticking constantly while we figure things out, get drunk, eat Burger King, feel resentful at our Amazon delivery taking a little longer to get to us than usual.
Jeez, trust me, if I could turn back time and right all my eff-up’s and change decisions then I would because I’m not one of those lucky buggers who claim they regret nothing.
I regret a lot.
And that is how it’s meant to be.
So we can learn from mistakes we make and keep growing into a more mature, knowledgeable and informed person.
Basically, time is not slowing down or pausing for anyone and the need to live in the moment and make each second count, is greater than ever.
Cringe and vomit, I know.
But it’s kinda true.
Maybe I’ll just speak for myself instead of the rest of us here, but going forward from this moment, I am going to make far more of an effort to be in the present and focus on making that work, before making my unknown future the first priority. Because that may never come.
OK, I need to wrap this fella up. I’m getting far too morbid for a sunny Sunday morning in Autumn.
Live now and live honestly.